Pte. Pukepail said:
Well, first of all, you guys aren't my drill instructors, this isn't BMQ, and this IS the reaction you can expect when people who apparently have nothing better to do with their lives but attempt to destroy my self-confidence, back me into a corner and start laying into me, questioning my desire to join the forces and the like. It's insulting. You may as well be questioning my sexual preference, that's how serious I take it. You guys aren't trying to be constructive. It's obvious you want nothing more than to give some anonymous guy a thrashing...for what? To improve you egos? I don't know. You don't like me? Okay. Ignore me then. If that's not it then, how about trying a little constructive criticism if the point of your responses is to 'teach me a lesson'. Tell me what your problem is. How else am I supposed to learn? Seems to be something nobody wants to do. Oh, you'll kick me in the gut whenever the opportunity presents itself, but it's too much like effort to actually say "I don't like your attitude because of this...". Furthermore, I've learned a lot since I made that initial post that Wesley quoted. You guys are bitter and don't appreciate enthusiasm. OKay, check, I get it, Hua and all that. You want me to be a robot apparently.
Listen, I can take the criticism when it's provided. And I'm not so proud that I won't apologize when I know I've wronged someone else. But this constant dog-piling for the sake of figuratively beating me senseless without providing a reason is getting old. Are you attempting to incite flame wars or something? Are you trying to anger me? That's how it looks from my end. Look, I'm enthusiastic and I'm passionate, okay? Deal with it for god sakes and stop trying to think you can kick it out of me, it's not going to happen! Not here anyway. I didn't come here for a pre-mature hazing if that's the intent. I'll have to deal with that once I'm in a unit.
I'll say this- you can't stop me from joining the forces if that's your goal. Preach all you want about how hard it is, and how people like me shouldn't and won't make it. When I do make it, (and I WILL make it) it'll be that much sweeter for me.